Patrick Noel Russ

Lyrics

If or When (Featuring Meredith McHenry)

The memory haunts my dreams
Nearly every day
We were just looking for an answer
Looking for a place to stay
Close my eyes and I hear coughing
She’s sinking in the metal bed
I see her sad pale face
She tells me she’d be better off dead

Got to leave her in this place
Fresh air and lots of space
As her hand drifts away from mine
We say goodbye one last time
Don’t know if I’ll see her again
If …..or when
Doctor said she’ll be coming home
To live
But I really don’t know
If or when

Croquet and tennis matches
Not for her she’s too far gone
Staring out her grimy window
She can see them on the lawn
We don’t know how it happened
How she got this strange disease
Will she come to San Francisco
I wish Someone would tell me please

Got to leave her in this place
Fresh air and lots of space
As her hand drifts away from mine
We say goodbye one last time
Don’t know if I’ll see her again
If …..or when
Doctor said she’ll be coming home
To live
But I really don’t know
If or when

Now it’s only rust and memories
Echoes of a distant past
She never left that place
It was the sickness that would last
Now I walk through rolling hills
I see the buildings breaking down
Reminders of a way of life
Just a few miles south of town

Got to leave her in this place
Fresh air and lots of space
As her hand drifts away from mine
We say goodbye one last time
Don’t know if I’ll see her again
If …..or when
Doctor said she’ll be coming home
To live
But I really don’t know
If or when

Doctor said she’ll be coming home
To live
But I really don’t know
If or when
If or when
If or when